On Trust and Respect

Respect. I trusted for respect.

But I trusted ignorantly.

I trusted unwisely.

And he raped me.

Poor, foolish choices

led to stolen virginity,

and yet, it was no fault of

those choices.

It was no fault of mine.

Because those poor, foolish choices

were made out of trust.

Out of trusting for respect.

But I trusted ignorantly.

I trusted unwisely.

And he raped me.

Proud, selfish choices

let to stealing virginity,

and how, could he think it was

his choice

to take that myst'ry from me?

Because those poor, foolish choices

were made out of trust.

Out of trusting for respect.

But he took advantage of me.

I trusted unwisely.

And he raped me.

It might take a while to deal with the pain.

With the shame.

With the guilt that doesn't belong to me,

but that I carry regardless.

It might take a while to deal with the shock

With the talking

About my feelings and what actually happened,

but I will stay calm and fearless

Because my poor, foolish choices

were just that:

Poor foolish choices.

They did not sleep with chastity,

They did not grope for sex.

It was the thief. It was the thief

that took my virginity from me.

And left me disrespected.

Left me defiled.

Left me marred.

Respect. I trusted for respect.

But I trusted ignorantly.

I trusted unwisely.

And he raped me.

He raped me.
~Joie Versaer Dantia (June 2010)

On Pain and Reality

The pain,
  Oh the pain of death,
  Which trickles into souls~
      Where dusty worlds
          lie yet undiscovered,
      Where man and boy
          rock in each other's arms,
          becoming one in grief~
  Where life and death
      Become blatent reality
      And all else fades
         in worth and value~
  Where the observer looks on
      in confusion
           and in disillusionment
     searching to uncover the same
           vision of reality,
     but refusing to visit
          those same dusty worlds
          of unwanted pain
          which unlock the eyes
          and reveal reality
as it truly is.
    ~Joie Versaer Dantia (February 2010)